after all the long and hard thinking,
i think i am going to go for this kinda softer look.

NO MORE AFRO FOR ME!
oh yeah, boo hoo alright.
cuz i just came to know the truth behind the afro heads. [artificial ones, i mean.]
they will weave ur real hair up and then sew on a afro wig [if i'm not wrong.]
WORST PART!
*note that i didn't use the word "worse" but "worst"!
I CAN'T WASH MY HAIR AT ALL UNTIL THE AFRO WIG COMES OFF.
talk about gross, man.
so if i'm not born to have an afro, i think i just got to face it and live without one.


waiting to perm/highlight/dye hair.
funny, i've been considering on hair extensions again.
but HMM, should i?
we'll see!

i'm pretty much bored of my current germaine.
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Adios, Mi pequeña amiga! (:

in FUNKY CHUNKS soon!
actually, don't visit the website first cuz hui fang and i have not dust the blogshop. haha.

asked jess to help me model in a few of them.

floral butterfly belt

black button top
espirit bare backed top
front view
flared sleeve top


sorry have been rather busy to elaborate much.
if u like what u are seeing, please let me know. (:

interviewer [girl]: i actually think i need more lipstick.

niecy nash: oh, do u?

interviewer [girl]: let's recycle! will u kiss me?

HA! wth.
mad tv brighten my morning.
no, i am not an addict to mad tv, but i do watch it once every.... few months, i think.
haha.
i was looking for more dance song in youtube, actually.


ooooh, today's weather is so coooold.


my whole body is aching.

flashbacks of the night before.
went to AMK to meet zeee to look for shoes.
sorry zeee! in the end we did mostly talking and not shoe shopping!
i promise next time!
after that, we went back to school's block E to meet carla, daphne and amin.
saw some of the juniors like sindu, celeste, pamala and charlene.
juniors showed their choreo for their competition to zeee and yee shan.
well, its a not bad choreo - for juniors.
just try to choreo to a song next time and go with the flow of the music ba.
and more leveling. (:
JIA YOU! (:

amin taught the seniors 2 choreos of his.
i like "church - t-pain ft teddy versati" and "let me think about it -Ida Corr ft Fedde Le Grand "
i think the "let me think about it" is the best piece u've came up so far. (:
good enough for competition.


didn't join in cuz i know i will screw up the flow of the group.
lol. so just went to self practice and try to freestyle again - this time to "click click click".
practised my waves and popping.
all rusty now.
jia you, germaine.
even my splits are higher. =X
just learnt a couple of Cwalks from youtube on tues.
gotta work on that too.
mental checklist checked.


but i really want to learn the choreos.
so zeee, pls email me the videos when u are free okay?
will be greatly appreciated! (:


got a really constructive comment from yee shan.
i will definitely work on it.
and thank you for the compliment too.
it really boost my confidence level. (:
he said i have a natural groove.
i will work on it and we'll see how far this groove will get me.


I'M MEETING SAMMY LATER!
happy and excited!
so long didn't see her.
awwww.
we're going to fix my holga cuz the sponge came out and my roll of film went to waste cuz exposed to light.
oh well.
i think i want to ask the lomo person to help me change the interior compatible for a 35mm film.
i have left one roll of 120mm film.
guess i am just going to use it on my seagull.
gotta buy more films soon!


[latest crazed song - click click click - new kids on the block ft nasri]
loving the beats and lyrics

I am patently awaiting on you to get dressed,girl,yeah
I'm gonna sit here while you put your face on,
Playing with your makeup, oh

Damn you look so good it hurts me (hurts me...)
The design of your body is perfect, oh...yeah
I don't deserve you, girl

And I'm like, stop (stop)
Let me take a mental shot of this moment
(Let me take a mental shot) yeah
Ooo,baby drop everything you're doing right now
And just hold it (Hold it)
Click click click

Pose for me,pose for me
(you know you want to)
Come on and pose for me,pose for me
My camera loves you

You are fashion,the latest style on the scene
Girl,I mean it,yeah..(mean it,yeah)
I am reacting (reacting)
loosing the cool in my knees
And I'm feening (feening for you)

And girl, everytime I click I go crazy (crazy...)
You kept the lense in my camera safe
(Give me your love) Ooohh yeah
Oh Oh Oh Oh (oh oh oh oh) yeah
I don't deserve you girl

And I'm like stop (stop)
Let me take a mental shot of this moment (moment)
(Let me take a mental shot) yeah
Ooo baby drop everything your doing right now
And just hold it, (Hold it)
(Hold it for me)
Click click click (yeah..)

Pose for me, pose for me
Come on and pose for me, pose for me (yeah)
My camera loves you, girl

[Donnie's Rap]
Click, click, click, with my nikon, click with my sony
Girl, I ain't no phony
You know that you're the only one that I came for
One I pull the cream for (yeah)
I take a shot of the hottie that I'm feenin' for
So make a pose for me, take off your clothes for me
Cause you and me is the way it's supposed to be
Yeah, ma let me lay you on the sofa
I'll slide a little closer, fly you to the coast-a,
Jamaica, take a shot of you on the beach
Click, click, click, last one on release
In your summer dress, wanna peak what's beneath

And I'm like stop (stop)
Let me take a mental shot of this moment (moment)
Ooo baby drop everything your doing right now
And just hold it, (Hold it)
Click click click (yeah..)

Pose for me, pose for me (Click click click)
Come on and pose for me, pose for me (yeah)
(Click click click)
My camera loves you,girl
(Click click click) (Click click click)

last night i dreamt that i was blind.
i cried and cried.

i can't imagine a day when i get blind.
like, when i am rubbing my eye, what if i rub too hard and messed a optical nerve and end up blind?

then i can't get to see the people i love.
every time their eyes light up when they laugh.
or the silly things they would always do which makes my day.
i can't even see their dear wrinkles when they frown.
i can't see their facial features and i had to feel their faces.

i can't see the the vibrant colours that fills the world anymore.
like when rainbows shyly peek out at us after a rain fall.
i can't see my favourite purple/green/orange colours.
or even the simplicity of the colour white.

i can't see all the shapes and sizes around.
of every breathing things and objects.

i can't see how people dance.
i can't see my beloved art pieces.
i can't draw, paint or even sew.
i can't see how beautiful mother nature is.


cuz all i saw was just a pitch black room.
up, down; left, right; front back.
just groping around, trying to trust my sensory nerves to tell me what is going on.


this, was how i felt in my dream last night.
no, it wasn't a dream.
it was more of a nightmare which i hope will not come true.
i don't want to feel that misery anymore.

... when u keep lagging behind others no matter how hard u try.
i'm sick of struggling all the time with choreos.
oh, how i wish i have the photographic fast processing memory.
geez, i think my old 90s computer is faster than my brain.

went to zeee's class today.
finally had time to.
well, my second one actually and i enjoyed it.

its only when i was on my way home, with many thoughts in my mind,
i started to "beat" myself up inside.
its really frustrating when i can't even remember where to start the choreo.
come on germaine.
get it together.
and when i tried to visualise the steps in my head,
*poof!*
my mind just had to freeze.
just like when zeee asked us to show her the choreo one by one after the class.
my mind just had to freeze up.
sheesh, germaine.


okay, i better start working harder.
a lot harder.
i'm tired of being the last in the race, smelling everyone's buttocks.

STRESS.
and today's retake paper wasn't any reason to be happy about.
i'm prepared to repeat my adult nursing.
its 10 times harder than the exam paper.
no i am not exaggerating.

okay. maybe i am.
5times harder.
BUT STILL!


ciaos.

for 2 reasons.

1st reason: i have a test paper tmr and i have not complete my revision!
i can't concentrate!
keep wanting to move about.
the past years' papers are not of much help as they totally demoralise me.
i really hope that tmr's paper will not be as tough as them!
and i have to wake up damn early for the paper is at 9am.
sigh.
nothing to do between 12 to 3 before meeting hui fang.


so i went to dance in my living room when my parents brought jackie down.
guess what?
here comes the 2nd reason.

i think i hurt myself while practising my freestlye.
i did a wack and my right shoulder hurts.
damn.
now i can't twist my arm 180 degree like a normal person can.
i think the most is 90 degrees.
it feels like a cartilage is being pulled when i try to turn more.


but anyway,
WOULD SOMEONE LIKE TO GO WITH ME FOR THIS WED'S MTV GROOVE I IN O SCHOOL? ITS AT 8PM.
BEFORE THAT, IT'S HIP HOP I. I DON'T MIND GOING TOO.
hoho.
interested parties, let me know asap okay? (:

i guess its time to make a decision.
its really sickening when i can't protect what is valuable to me.
i'm sorry, girl.
i have to take back my words.
i guess there is no point in staying if my purpose of staying is no longer there.
the juniors will be gone, if u come to think of it.
its time to pursue my other interest and continue what i have left off.


after my last practice, i will consider one of these choices:
- take up a photography course.
- audit for the crew.
- take up classes in O school/ Jitterbugs.
- continue my salsa course.
- take up classes in:
1) drawing.
2) pastry.
3) clay molding.
4) singing to correct my voice.
5) piano/ guitar/drums
- resume my hotel job.
- take up Victor's offer of being his business partner.
- a part time job.
- a secret i will not reveal just yet.

yup. i have been meaning to do all these before i get too old.
too bad i didn't have the time to juggle all these.
haha, i guess its just too many.




*shrugs*

my very first good night MMS from u
the beach had always been ours.
the one and only rose u surprised me when we went to VS to mug.

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i am posting the poem u wrote to me.
this, i hope, will remind me that u are my past, not my future.
i' ve moved on, so have u.
this is our deal, sealed with ur poem. (:


DREAM
missing carpet snow
on that bed
wont you love me all the same?
red roses swept
i'll hold these troubles in your stead.

what the thought of loneliness
comforting pinch.
what a tinge
let me fall my lady love
in those eyes quench my thirst

love me tender
kiss me deep.
you pretty persona lingering
on my lips.

alas the awakening
of this abrupt emptiness
for wish i had not

fill the pages
on this contemplation
words aside
your temptation
my emancipation



good night,
oh sweet memories.

OMGOSH! i find them super entertaining and i really didn't expect the indian guy. i really thought that he was just a cleaner who lost his way sweeping and dumbly went up the stage too! haha!

and the guy imitated michael jackson so well!
check out his buttery moonwalk. haha!

HAPPY EIGHTEEN, MANDA MONNA!(:
I am so sorry i couldnt be there,
personal reason ):
hope you had fun and this is your first birthday with a********!*!*!**!*!*!*!!!!! (((:
teehehe
all the best!!

and connie, dont hate me cause i didnt go k, ):
xD




mainey loves clan gang!
i think i will be going to jessica's house for our little gathering!
have to make up for all these time not being able to go.


ATTACHMENT IS OVER, BAYBEH!
still thinking of some of the patients but definitely not that stalker [some of u should know who. =P]
I STILL MISS R* and her oh-so-cute behaviours.
heh heh.


badminton tmr with my secondary school friends to RELEASE!

i wish we could talk a lot longer.
haha.
i don't know.
how do i feel now?
i guess i am just numb.
since i had experienced this sadness so many times on ur account.
but still, it's alright.(:


i remembered the night breeze and the distant music.
i still remember how to water in the river looked so beautiful as we were by the bridge, talking.
talking more than what we should.
i guess in my tired daze, i let u into my secret.
but at the same time, u told me urs and i am glad we understood each other better.
i guess what is left now is a stronger friendship.


maybe a peck on the cheek to close this chapter of my life might be too outragous so it didn't happen.
heh.



CONGRATS TO ZEEE, DAPHNE AND ALLISON ON THE GREAT PERFORMANCE PUT UP FOR THE SINGAPORE RIVER FESTIVAL!
LOVE YA GUYS A LOT! (:
DANCE ON!

..i started to visualise different kinds of moves [even those damn high level kinds which i can't do] as i listen to the music, that i realise i fell topsy turvy in love with dance
ALL OVER AGAIN.


GERMAINE CHEONG,
its time to start ur climb again.
JIA YOU, GERMS!

was feeling awfully naughty and proud that i have not bite my nails for a long long time, i did this to miao miao[ one of my IMH attachment friend ].

so poor thing lo! haha. but she said that the pain is enjoyable so its okay, i guess. haha.


hmm! how has my IMH attachment been so far?
today the Doc Goh discharged many of my favourite patients.
like CB* and R*. they are so cute!
never fail to make my days in IMH fun and sunny.
I* might be transferring to another ward too so another sunshine gone.
oh well! i have only 3 more days left!
just gotta bear with it. haha


i guess i like R* the best though there is a language barrier between us.
she speaks only malay and i don't really know much.
i'm very thankful that Fadz is there to help me translate most of the time or else we can try to communicate until the next morning and still can't understand anything we had said. haha.
she would ask me to buy food like 'tow seh [not sure the spelling]' for her in the morning and will not "friend" me for a while.
when i give her the sad face, she would sayang me and say, "sayang daughter-in-law, don't sad."- in malay.
haha. so cute right!
apparently, i am her "daughter-in-law" because she keep match making me with either one of her sons. HAHA. fadz is also the other "daugther-in-law".

today was a sudden decision to discharge her so didn't get to prepare much for her farewell gift.
so instead, i just dance around with her singing, "giri giri [correct malay spelling for dance?]"
haha.
and i will ask her if she is happy. "su ke dak? [correct spelling for happy?]"

tied her hair in nice cute scorpian pleats before her youngest son came to fetch her home.
she look like a small girl, u know!
and she is like what, 60 years old already.
hahaha.

but her son is damn good looking. pewyo!!!
teeheehee.
and he is like, 21 years old i think.
not my type though, as in character.
OH WELLS!
hahahaha.
she even made me dance the giri giri song with her son la! PAI SEH RED TOMATO FACE!
shy la, okay.



ANYWAY! (:
some photos of the pussycat near my block.
i'm really happy with some of these photos because they look like they are taken from from farty photo-mania places like devartart.com.
but its not okay! hoho.







SO CUTE AND CUDDLY!
WANT TO KIDNAP HER HOME.
don't think jackie will like it, though.
HMM.


being a nature freak too, the closest i can get to in my flat area would be these.
LOVIN' THE COLOUR AND THE PLAY OF LIGHT

looks a little like a painting.HMM.


these "touch-me-nots" i found on the way to IMH.
i edited the colour contrast differently in both.
top edited in my handphone while the bottom is edited in my lappie.
i love the greeeeeeeeeeness of it. (:

since monday the photoshoot was cancelled, i met hui fang to collect a couple of clothes from a blogshop owner.

after that, we just hang out in explanade area and has some fun with our mini mini "photoshoot".
these is the best we could do with my handphone camera. haha


i like the way how the light from the ground hit some part of her body and plays around the curves of her arm muscles.












a picture where anyone could've been the character.