i made this for Sharon for her birthday on Sunday. its a present from me, sam, nuo, vic, miao and matt. (:
the external the internal. i love the kimono material (: sam made this Macdonald set for Andy. i helped out with the drink and the tray. the only thing missing in here is the burger and the tissue. i think the fries is very nicely done. GOOD JOB, SAM! (: and this is the Dim Sum set i sewed for Tany. the siew mai and a pao... the spring rolls... andddd... the dumplings. haha.
yup, that's all.
last week, i went for an interview and an audition. an audition for Foreign Bodies, an interview for my bonding to CGH. i am very anxious yet fearful of the release of results. and its going to be about a week or two before they are out! i can't take the suspense! zomgsss. i think i will be very disappointed if i am not able to get any of them. like, REALLY.
bumped into julian outside DanceOnUs after my street latin class. he was practising for his upcoming pop and lock performance, if i am not wrong. he polished a little of my wave and popping. taught me some new cool stuffs too. have to start practising soon! and my splits, oh gosh bless me. i think its even worse now. but i dont know why. how is it i can be stretching my muscles every day, trying to elongate them and my splits are getting higher than usual? HMM.
oh! speaking of which, i think i dreamt that i could get down onto a perfect split like, really painlessly. and i could turn around 5 pirouettes effortlessly. and lemme tell u, IT FELT SO GOOOOOD!! (: sadly, i had to wake up to reality. oh BOO..
alrights, shall go cuddle with my pillows now! GOOD NIGHTS! (:
7:35 AM
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008
okay, i've decided.
i will stay in Danz Inc. cuz too little people. and And AND.. i want to make seniors like Jing wei, Firdaus, Dyana and ESPECIALLY ZELIA proud! I'M GOING TO WORK HARD!! AND to prove HIM wrong! grrr. still so angry with his comments on SA.
but, i MIGHT not be able to go for all the practices due to time and studies. but i will be practising at home or taking up classes outside to try and help the growth.
and to whoever who are thinking of quitting, i also want to urge u guys to think again because like what they say, no matter what, a Stage Art-er will always be a Stage Art-er! so let's JIA YOU! (:
9:22 AM
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
this has been on my mind for a long time. to be precise, it is when i start drifting away from the people in my club.
i want to stay on because of many reasons and one of the reason is that no matter what happened, i know deep down, i still love the members a lot. yes, even when i felt so left out.
there are also many reasons why i want to quit and one of such is that the club has lost its homely feeling. when i tried to be happy in the club thinking that maybe things will be much better. however, at times, when all grieve and disappointment is put aside, i can just accept them as who they are. this helps in communicating with them and gaining back whatever i've lost in our relationship. there are times like club crawl when all of us just work hard together and i really love that bonding feeling. (:
another reason is that i've come to find that maybe Jazz isn't my forte. i've tried a few other dances and have come to like genres like salsa, hip hop and pop and lock. i like Jazz in general. but it is really hard to like it when i can't dance really good in it due to the lack of flexibility. but this is just minor.
my dad just told me yesterday that i can't be coming home so late almost every single nights. he said that i have to choose either dance or church. this is also due to my studies. i am intending to choose church. also, i'm taking outside street latin classes on monday and soon salsa 1B classes on sat too. still considering if i should go ahead and join some open classes in O school for their pop and lock.
there are so many things that are pushing and pulling me. i really don't know what to do. i don't want to disappoint the seniors but yet i don't feel that i am capable to make them proud.
soo.. yeah. if u don't understand what i am saying, i wouldn't blame u. cuz i don't understand half of it myself. heh.
9:00 AM
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Saturday, April 19, 2008
omgosh.
i think i over strain my knee. they feel really achy and painful. and unstable.
=(
anyway, club crawl 08 is over and done with. i'm glad that day two, our performance was so much better. (:
met up with matt and may today to go to SCGS for alysson's school carnival. the kids there are so cute! zomgs. hoho.
may went for her church service while me and matt went to far east to shop. i bought 2 cool stuffs! (:
lemme show u.
imma camera freak. i think i've got a lot of camera junkies at home. haha
7:51 AM
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
i am attempting a wave with a head roll. haha! Rabiah taught me. (: i look so ridiculous! hahahahhahha. but it was fun, so wtheck. (: i think i suck. aiming to learn more. i want to learn more on pop and lock! all the waves and stuffs. oh! the robot movements too. i think Firdaus and Jing wei had been pouring more and more oil into my burning passion. thank you for teaching me whatever i've learnt so far! (:
today's performance? well, it wasn't really good. but rene and the SAOs were rather impressed. she gave us a pep talk and i feel soooo motivated by her. i began to put in my whole heart, dump it into my practice. i don't want to disappoint the C seniors any more. i want them to think, HMM, so this is the bunch of juniors we'll leave behind to hold the club name up high and proud. we're very glad.
YES, that exactly. after all they have done for us. made us from raw matters to shiny metals. from scratch.
TMR I WILL GIVE MY ALL!!!! YEAH!
alrighthahagoodnight. (:
*p.s- i think today Drama is exceptionally great! i love them to bits though i'm taking a break from them now. sorry. =(*
9:21 AM
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Saturday, April 12, 2008
my whole body feels weird.
still sick.
BOO.
will update soon.
7:27 AM
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Wednesday, April 09, 2008
i have been thinking.
well, of going to Australia for my university studies. that is if i can't get into NUS. my mum is rather insistent that UK would be a much better place, excluding the higher expenses.
then i started imagining how would it be like. in my mind, it looked like a school. any school. every school. the perfect school.
the perfect small-town school, set back on a green lawn, a three-story red-brown brick building with wide steps leading up to the main doors, a clock with Roman numerals above the entrance, showing another quarter of an hour before anyone really had to be anywhere.
Undergraduates all over the place, heading into the building, spilling over the lawn, trading high fives, low fives, news of the summer. Music poured out across the grass, a rap rhythm blasting from someone's boom box. two guys passed a football. a girl with long red hair tossed a frisbee to her friend. and and a.. what? couple kissing under a tree? *shrugs*
its how a school is supposed to look like. well, at least in the movies.
(:
anyway, i went to Bedok Swimming Complex to swim with bibi. 12 laps! died-ed. haha. i had a gulp of pool water. gross. i'm going to flash down with water later. this time without chlorine. bleah..
okays. i'm off to take a nap suspecting slight fever. BOO HOOOO.
1:50 AM
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Saturday, April 05, 2008
me: Father ___, have u seen God?
him: no, i have not. *5 seconds later* have you?
me: no. me neither.
him: *sees me tearing* are u crying, my dear?
me: *sniffs* its okay.
him: is something wrong? did something happen?
me: nope, i'm just confused, that's all.
yup. confused and stressed with work. this took place on thursday.he closed his eyes and pray again.i want to thank Li Lian for the small talk u gave me on the way to the bus stop. i begin to understand better now. (:
8:05 AM
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hayati: Wandi asked me why girls like u and sam go crazy over kids. whenever u see them, u two will go, "AHHH, SO CUTE!".
me: haha. then tell him la. we have the womb, they have the sperm. DO THE MATH.
YAY! yesterday was the last day of attachment and i didn't make a single mistake! whoopie! hahahha. so happy. thank you, God. for ur guidance. (:
CI Cai talked to us personally today. she told bibi that me, sam, bibi and wei qi are the best student nurses so far in our group. hahahaha. so happy and shocked to hear that. she said we look very cute runninng around doing errands for the patients. -.-
after our shift, we went to Sempang Bedok to have supper. (: had a nice time with hayati, fadzillah, najib, sam and bibi. we should do this more often. (:
7:42 AM
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Wednesday, April 02, 2008
i just watched "Human Body : pushing to the limits" in Discovery Channel. it talked about the eyes and how amazing they are. i have never thought that the human eyes were this awesome with many functions. they started showing someone who lost her eyes and regaining her eye sight with a newly discovered device. it sends light informations of the surrounding from a camera in a pair of sunglasses into the brain. meaning that they will drill a tunnel through the brain and install 2 platelets into the middle. so it seems like she has became a robot. she is not seeing things like how we do but as white spots or lines. well, at least she can see what is around her. it must've felt awful to be blind as a bat.
but i dislike it when they said that "maybe in the future, we will not even need our eyes." why, u ask? because God has blessed us with such a precious thing and if we misused it and were to be overpowered by technology in the future, it will be very depressing. the eyes are also something which we have taken granted for many times. sigh.
anyway, today i talked to one of my patient. we call him uncle ___or Father ___ and he is from England. he is someone important in church. is it a bishop? a position higher than pastors. he knows a bishop in KY church too. (: he has a very bad short term memory now. when he woke up this morning, he was asking me if i was bringing him to a show. he loves going for theatre shows in esplanade. he completely forgot that he fell down and fractured his hips and his grandson sent him to the hospital. he kept saying that he has lost his grandson and asked me to track him down. he thought that he is like, 61-70 years old when he is actually 98 years old already. when his friend came to see him, i was told that he is a maths genius. Uncle ___ was asked a maths question which include the pie of 3 and within a sec, he said a whole load of numbers which is the correct answer!! he used to go to colleges and poor countries to teach and preach. it is really a waste that he has reached such a fragile age. but i'm sure God will be with him forever.
me: hello uncle roy. how are u today? him: i'm fine, thank you. *smiles* i've prayed to God a minute ago. me: oh really? that's great! what did u tell him about? him: *hesitates* i don't tell people what i pray about. me: haha. but its good u're talking to God. (:
6:26 AM
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this is a video from Ben Wu's blog! dance mates! check this out. DAMN CUTE AND WACKY!
learn it young and be a professional when old.
whoohoo! (:
thank you, sammy for ur unglam picture! i lovveeee it a lot!
and thank you for the encouraging words u wrote at the back! u're one of the best things that happened in my life! (: LOVE YA!
2:53 AM
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Tuesday, April 01, 2008
i just got a letter from CGH, asking if i want to be bonded with them. i don't know if i should bond.there are too many thought in my mind. like, should i? what if i regret? what if i realise at the end of my poly life that nursing is not what i want to indulge in? if i were to give up on nursing, what kinda job will i be able to do in the future? what if my results can't make it and i have to pay back the bonding money? 900 dollars per month for year 2 adn 950 dollars per month for year 3. that's a huge sum of money for a student like me to pay back. what if CGH isn't the hospital i want to be in?
its so sad.my parents advised me to stick to CGH because it is very near to my house. so i don't have to be so tired travelling up and down. especially for morning shift. but i want to try out other hospitals such as NUH, SGH and KKH.
today vainpot staff nurse had a talk with me. i could have killed a patient because of my forgetfulness. a ECG technician asked me to inform a staff nurse that she has taken a patient's ECG and the result is that he has AMI. at that time i had no idea what was AMI and my mind was full with wound dressing as CI Cai just assessed me. and my team's SN was on break. so i completely forgot to inform. AMI means that the patient might have a heart attack any time. luckily the patient was alright or else i can never forgive myself.
but everyone was very kind to me. it hurts even more. when i walked pass the patient's bed, he smiled at me and i felt so guilty. an EN also pulled me to a corner to comfort me. she said that at the meeting they were helping me. they told sister and the nursing manager that they can't completely blame me because i am still a student nurse and i am still learn. the SN should have paid attention during report taking and do a follow-up.
i went to the toilet to cry for about 15 mins and fell asleep from all the exhaustion. then i went for break with bi zhen. when i was in the tea room for my 2nd break, sister came in. she didn't mention anything about yesterday's incident and treat me with that "potential nursing manager" affection as always. finally i found courage and told her that i am sorry. i was surprised when she pat my head and said that it is okay because i am still learning. as long as i don't do the same mistake.i felt so touched at that time and tears threatened to well up again.
thank you, God. for surrounding me with people as understanding and forgiving as them. also i have started to realise who are the people who truly loves me and are my true friends.thank you for letting our path in life cross. (:
the external
the internal. i love the kimono material (:
sam made this Macdonald set for Andy. i helped out with the drink and the tray. the only thing missing in here is the burger and the tissue. i think the fries is very nicely done. GOOD JOB, SAM! (:
and this is the Dim Sum set i sewed for Tany.
the siew mai and a pao...
the spring rolls...
andddd... the dumplings. haha.
