Thursday, December 27, 2007
sometimes it really hard to tell myself that things are fine when all around me, disappointment and loneliness are just happening over and over again.
honestly speaking, i'm sick and tired of being nice. having to smile for those whom i love - friends and family. it is not that i am being two-faced but i just don't want to make things worse like stirring up a tsunami of arguments and cold wars.
deep down, i just want someone to be really there for me and misses me when i'm gone. i know its selfish to do good for others and expect to get something in return. like a smile or a hug. or even a word, "thank you". i would like to hear someone say i miss u when they really mean it and not just for the sake of saying. once or twice, i'm fine with it. but it happens so many times that i get so sick of it, i'm just getting myself into the deep pit of depression.
thinking a lot of the situation doesn't makes it easier to smile and be jolly like how i used to be. yes, it's getting harder and harder to smile. all around me, i see people loving and getting loved back. i really wonder
how do they do it. is there a secret ingredient in their personality which pulls this kinda attraction and love to them? i really wonder. perhaps i really dont have what it takes.
i can't rememeber when was the last time i was really happy for weeks. maybe it was the starting of this year. i hope to have that feeling back.
i kept telling myself that it is time for me to grow up and not be such little miss nice or little miss sunshine. well, i would but it will be from the heart. but everytime, i just go back to my old ways cuz i dont want to make things any worse.
oh well, this is just one of my deepest thoughts and feelings.
ciao.
yups, this is Bruce Lee.
i had a few minutes of fame.
Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie.
sadly, Jay Zhou looked horrible here.
can't recall who is he. but i'm guessing he is a comedian.
heh heh.
Ayumi. [correct spelling?]
whoo! that geisha girl.
PRINCESS DIANA!
betcha didn't know i was from the Royal Family. teehee.
"and now, my people! we shall....."
imitating.
Hitler 
Mozart was still a kid. 
meet the father of my nation!
mao zedong. that famous chinese leader out of my history book
yup, i flew with the Hong Kong president.
first chinese up in the moon!
how i wish i am that witty to come up with such a formula.
yet, bibi can still question Einstein's intelligence.
GOSH, JAMES BOND.
his waxy clone still looks just as sexy. haha.
send me home please.
winter sonata.
suddenly, i felt awfully short.
david beckham? not really much of a fan.
SUMO POWER! haha.
see? took up 2 tissues! actually 3. i just didn't include the other into the photo. lol.
look at my hip hop doggie.
haha. i pulled over one of my jersey tank top over her. looks so big size.
nicky doing his split in the MRT train.
jessie.
some zhi lian behaviour got rubbed off from yan yan- self proclaimed cam whore queen. haha.
YAY!
all 4 girls who went! (:
jess with that artistic structure.
me and jess. (;
so many place, where to do next?
miss gorgeous legs.
eunice gone crazy. haha
it says : i <3>
jump, jump, jump.
what's that?
the next zul [drama inside joke]
eunice is the only one who would propose with an empty drink packet. haha
doesn't it look like she is really so angry that she bent the bar? 
oops. :P
late for school. [haha. i could still remember the sec school days where we have to rush to get through the gate before the bell rings and the security guard will just close it.]
guess who is the security guard and the students. LOL.
randomness.
