this is what i believe now. like what amin and sam and some ppl said, its okay to not get into FB. if i've tried my best and they don't accept me in, its fine.
things happen for a reason and i believe that God has craved a path for me and my path is to stay on and built Danz Inc. I WILL I WILL I MUST I MUST!!!!! i must get down onto splits by JUNE! i must get perfect squared splits by JULY! i must perfect my one turn by END OF THIS MONTH! i must get my 2 pirouette turns by JUNE! i must quickly polish whatever i have to set an example for my juniors. i will try my best to set a competitive and good environment for my club members! i will save money to take classes outside. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO BRING UP THE CLUB WITH WHATEVER LIMITED CAPABILITY THAT I HAVE.
i want the alumnis to come back for Alumni Night and be proud of us! ESPECIALLY ZEE, JING WEI AND FIRDAUS WHO DIDN'T THROW US AWAY. I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO MUCH. oh and Dyana too.
i am very happy that we had this club meeting tonight. it really slap us back to reality. many of us cried and its a very good sign. zee has been too nice to us and ITS NOT HER FAULT that SA is in this state now. its our fault that we take it for granted. my batch was the "most potential" batch stated by peter. but at the same time, we are the batch which pulled down the club. slowly ppl just quit and go off doing their own stuffs. even when i came home tonight, my dad told me to quit my cca. i broke down and cried that i can't. i really can't quit NOW. i feel that it is partly my fault and my responsibility as a senior and a member to bring up the club back to how it was in the past. i went to the toilet, i vomited.
I SERIOUSLY MISSED THE TIMES WHEN THERE WERE SOOOO MANY OF US THAT THE STUDIO CAN'T CONTAIN US. WE WERE SO ENTHUSIASTIC THAT EVEN AFTER PRACTICE, WE WILL BLAST "SEXYBACK" AND CATWALK DOWN THE RUNWAY. i miss those times and i want them back.
what can i do? please tell each of us as we don't know what we can do.
