this morning as i about to go to the hospital, i saw an auntie working out in the senior workout area. she was violently using this equipment which has 2 handles. u have to hold one handle in one hand and pull one down. so if ur right hand pulls, ur left hand goes up. if ur left pulls, ur right goes up. its like a... pulley. well, i'm not sure if i've confused u but.. yeah, at least i'm trying. heh.
anyway, i was so scared she would jerk off her shoulder judging from the way she pulled it. i stopped, debating with myself if i should go over and advise her the right way of using the equipment. one side of me wanted to tell her so much while the other was holding back, perhaps from the fear of being embarrassed if she doesn't heed my advice or even worse, ignore me. *shrugs*
but somehow i found myself making my way towards her and stood in front of her. i HAVE to say something, i thought. i mean i can't just stand there and stare at her, right? and she was looking at me expecting me to tell her something. so i just advised her and after seeing that she nod her head, i went off.
from a distance, i observed her for a minute. she seemed to be doing the same thing and i thought to myself, i told u so. then i started to notice that she was using lesser strength as compared to before soo.. great!
okay, u might have wondered why i wrote such a long-winded "essay" about a silly thing like this. or maybe u've probably just dozed off or diverted ur attention to something else. but anyway, the reason is that i was pondering if it was the holy spirit which urged me forward or was it just pure impulse? come to think about it, i really wonder when and how will God be talking to me as He has done so to some people. was it something they heard as they pray? was it some kinda signs which they saw? or was it through a dream which He has communicated with them?
but nevertheless, i'll wait faithfully for Him because i believe that there will come a day when i'll fully know that He isREAL. i want to commit to the first commandment without any doubts! (: