Sunday, March 18, 2007
"I love walking in the rain because no one will know that i'm crying."
this is just a common phrase u would see nowadays but after rolling it around in my mind, i realise how true it is. but then of course, rain gives us a happy feeling at other times. someone told me before that crying is good, at times; it is a form of healing of the heart. hmmm... people also have said that rain are tears of heaven's; or is it God's blessing for us?
i need to learn how to look at things from heaven's point of view.in everyone's life, there's always be ups and downs. my 'ugly picture' would be when i'm at my down period. when my 'ugly picture' is put alongside everyone else's pictures, what a grand collage; and beyond. but when you master the habit of looking at things from the other party's perspective, that's when confusion sets in; and disparity.
but i prefer heaven's idea of the 'bigger, complete picture' rather than my 'microscopic skeptical picture'. because then i know that what i do is imptance and value. with a simple action of mine, i might have made a stroke across my picture. it might not make any sense with it alone.but when God put my picture against the rest's, that stroke might have meant to be a part of the rainbow. i can't help but smile at that.
yup.
last night worked in Raffles again and went home with Lydia and Preeti. the whole time, we were talking and joking about work. i was so engrossed in the conversation that when i reached Kembangan, i didn't realise it so i decided to drop off at Bedok instead. stupid thing was i got myself into the flow of the conversation again that Preeti had to cut me short by saying, "Germaine! Bedok!" haha. which bring me back to the times when i was in the MRT with bibi, Jade and Cyn. whenever the train had arrived in Kembangan, i would sometimes look at the "Kembangan" sign, point to it and go, "oh, Kembangan." but i didn't alight. happened like 3 times already so i alighted at Bedok instead. blahh. haha.
yay! went to meet Poo siang in the bungalow area after work. felt like meeting a long lost friend. there were 2 drunkass at the playground when we sat on the swing. thank god nothing happened. haha. poor poo siang. after he walked me home, i gave him a challenge to run back home. he took 10 mins and the distance was about 2 km. haha. good job, poo poo.
yesterday was in a fit cuz of someone. excuse me, but i'm gona rant, so don't mind me.
so what if u're captain now? u didn't do anything to deserve it. when other people are slogging hard to please the guests and doing our job, u go play with small kids. i was standing so far away from ur station and u summoned me so ok, fine. i went to u. what did u ask for? "Germaine, can u give that guy forks and spoon?" and u know what's funny? the station is RIGHT NEXT to u, u could have just stick out ur hand and take a fork and a spoon for the guest right? don't u have limbs? what happened to them? so now u're physically incapable just cuz u are promoted as captain? wow, nice promotion. all u do is nag and scold and boss ppl around. when i asked u why u can't get it urself, the things u said was so sickening : "why do i need so many staff if i can do this all by myself?" damn u, i don't work FOR u, i HELP u. and Pei Zhen was supposed to be ur station partner, not ur SLAVE. do u know that she actually cried cuz of u? u know what i should have shot back at u? "why do u think Reto, Damien and Karnan paid u for? to boss us around?" when its time to present a Birthday cake to a guest, u're so quick to steal the limelight. all u do is to play with small kids and flirt with big boobie ladies. don't think i don't know what u're thinking but i'm telling u, not a chance, fella. remember the Finland event? the guests were dancing ballroom right? what did u do? ask me to go into the cigar divan with u and u closed the door and asked me to dance with u? i said don't want and we should be outside doing service instead of being in here and u remember what u said? "there are many staff doing service for us." what kinda captain ARE U? i told u i'm not in the mood and u gave me a black face. wth. what's worse, u perv, u asked me once to watch a porn video with u. damn u, sicko. don't ever get all touch-y on me again or i'll swear u'll be sorry. don't worry, i've heard all about u and ur filthy hands from the girls so just lay off. and no, i will not help u be together with Shelia even if u screw me upside down at work cuz i don't think u deserve her. she has already given u a brush-off so give it a rest. if u ever read this entry, good for u cuz now u know how i feel about u.
