Saturday, January 06, 2007
hellllllll leeeeee yoooo!!haha. super high today. just came back from singapore poly. wow, the place was initially packed by the time my parents and i reached there. i saw so many people today! let's see. i saw nadiah, yu ying, 2 of the 4e5 girls who i vaguely remember. mmm. felicia (she's looking super hot today. woots. haha. she went suntanning, i guess.), brenda, lyn, ros, gideon, remus, joyce and shuk han. if i can get into tourism and hotel management, i can get to go Disneyland! haha. i heard that if i get into that course in NP, i get to go star cruise. if i go to TP, i get to go sentosa for a year. yawn. Disneyland has the most appeal to me! WahahaS!oh, there was this freaky guy who asked shuk han, joyce and i for our numbers. he kept following us around. eeps.
oh! haha. after walking around a bit, the 3 of us went to sit down and chat. chatterbox us. haha. actually mainly about our love life and what courses we want and bla bla. but its always diverted back to love love love. hahahaha. joyce, i'm glad ur bf got into vj. haha. its a nice school. i want to go for the mass dance! but i don't think i'll be crashing on monday. wouldn't want to bump into him. yup yup. go have fun and dance it out with ur dear la. haha.
ok. anyway, this aside, here's my reply to wei ying.darling, i know its hard to let go of someone especially if u really like that dude a lot. its hard to move on, but u CAN do it. i know it seems impossible to forget about him but i'm telling u right here, right now, it IS POSSIBLE. there are so many more fishies in the ocean. this may sound like a cliche but hey, its true. Mr Right is just around the corner and if u're lucky, u'll find him soon. u know, darling. i used to think the same way as u when my ex broke up with me. but look at me now! i'm enjoying life! haha. i've accepted the fact that my life goes on, with or without him. if it has to be without him, so be it. i can be a nun, for all i care. we are still young! look at us, we're barely 20!
and please, DON'T ever think of hurting urself. dear girl, think of it. will it do any good to cut urself? well, people said the pain from the wound will cover up the pain u feel in ur heart. but i'm telling u right now that all those are nothing but CRAP. it just doubles the amount of pain u feel.hey, don't look at me like i'm some goody two shoes cuz i'm talking from real life experience. i'm ashamed to say this but i ever cut myself before cuz of someone but that is a long time ago. looking back, i can't believe i'm so immature. and why make urself suffer like that? its not like he will come back to u if u cut urself. he might not even bother. he might have already forgotten u and might say " wei ying who? " i'm sorry. i know its harsh but its a damned world out there. if he lets u go, its his loss. cuz honey, seriously, u are a lovely girl and u deserve someone better. look at the way he treated u in the past, worth crying over? i think not. i've learned a leason. don't hold on to something that isn't meant to be urs. u're only gona hurt urself more and more each day. if he is meant to be for u, God will not pull him away from u. i'm not holding on to him anymore but yeah, still sad that we aren't even talking or anything. but haha, oh well, life goes on.i guess for me, i just want to get into a course that i want in poly or, if by miracle i can get into a Jc, i'll go to a good one and just immerse myself with my studies and of cuz, my friends. personally for me, i think i'll stay away from the love rat race for a bit. i've got years ahead of me and its not like my biological clock is ticking away like time bombs. what i need now is to study and work out a bright future so that i wouldn't have to look back at my life and say, "DAMN, i should have done this, done that." instead, i want to just sit back and look at my life as though it is a movie of a person who didn't have anything to regret about and say, "DAMN, life is great!" yup! but that's just me. all i can help u is just pouring words into ur ears and i can go on and on but it all comes down to ur decision, darling. also, for ur question on how i got over the whole break up, well, i just get busy. with silly stuffs, exercise (it really put my mind off him. i'll be too tired to even think. haha.), go out with my friends, get to know new ones and of cuz, most girls' best friend- SHOPPING! hahahaha! i'm trying to get a job now so i can work myself silly. soo.. maybe u can try these too. they really help A LOT. think of other ways too! haha. brain storm, babe. if rainy days come and memories just floods back, need a friend to hear u out, i'm just a call away. yup yup! cheers babe! XD
